After interacting with a lot of people, i have come to the following conclusion about the most abundant things in the universe. The first three in my list are:-
1. Stupidity
2. Greed
3. Hydrogen.
One expression that really freaks me out these days is "civilization" and civilized people. I don't understand what the **** these terms mean
Are we more advanced than our ancestors who were apes. This term seems to mean "Having a high state of culture and development both social and technological". I would agree with the technological parts(w.rt. bullet 1, Weapons of Mass Stupidity are very lethal and contagious) but what about the social aspects?
Having technology be a slave to a stupid master? How wise is that?
We are on a mission to destroy the eco-system that we inhabit, and hope to not face the consequence.
When we are strong, we want to bully our fellow human beings to do what we want, and when we are weak we are going to plea for mercy, deceive or cheat. What the F***.
This race for higher glory, pleasure, *fulfillment* is maddening.
To each his very own.
I dont think animals are so stupid or fuc*ing selfish. They eat when they have to, and maintain some sort of equilibrium with their environment.
Man's greed is only second to his stupidity. He would exploit everything around him only to repent for it later. But yeah life is now. Who cares about tomorrow.
Everyone wants to marry a Goddess, raise his own kids, be *successful* in life. People around us are living in pathetic conditions. But i did not create these conditions, and why should i clean it up? A very reasonable excuse.
People fight over religion. What the heck? Is your faith in Him, so weak, that you need to fight with people over what their faith is. Religion was made to unite people and not to divide them.
Yeah, a man is a funny animal. He has to loose everything, before he realizes the importance of what he has lost. So much for the civilized world.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
Love
Love and God are so similar, they call upon you to trust, accept and let things be and enjoy the stillness and ever-changing landscape.
From an atheist's point of view God is a conversation designed to soothe a man's survival instinct, it is a conversation, that lets him live in peace amidst all the chaos and change around him.
Love is something similar, when analyzed and understood.
But understanding is so damn limited, it does not understand or comprehend, that there are powers beyond it, well how can it?
Love is a fresh flower to be felt, admired, its in the present, its strength its tough, trying and yet so satisfying. Makes the life thatz empty meaningful.
After being a non-believer for so much time, i believe, i choose to enjoy my life and be at peace take what i want, though it might not make sense, but thatz just all i want.
Not to analyze things anymore, not to be so rigid, so power hungry, so focussed on myself.
Just chill and enjoy, be at peace with things, and chill out, take a break.
Believe and love, and let Him enter and Be.
From an atheist's point of view God is a conversation designed to soothe a man's survival instinct, it is a conversation, that lets him live in peace amidst all the chaos and change around him.
Love is something similar, when analyzed and understood.
But understanding is so damn limited, it does not understand or comprehend, that there are powers beyond it, well how can it?
Love is a fresh flower to be felt, admired, its in the present, its strength its tough, trying and yet so satisfying. Makes the life thatz empty meaningful.
After being a non-believer for so much time, i believe, i choose to enjoy my life and be at peace take what i want, though it might not make sense, but thatz just all i want.
Not to analyze things anymore, not to be so rigid, so power hungry, so focussed on myself.
Just chill and enjoy, be at peace with things, and chill out, take a break.
Believe and love, and let Him enter and Be.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Routine Life
You create a purpose, an intent, you can destroy it.
Creation and destruction are natural phenomenon. One that gets created would get destroyed.
Desire to stay in vacuum, being on the stands of the game called life.
Observing people being happy, being sad, judging evaluating, waiting for a safe time when you would start playing, living actually.
And then wonder of wonders, what is the meaning of life, is the tone that plays.
Nothing has to be done, nothing.
You could do various things, all the same. Desire to do dims, been there, done that.
What next, is the question?
How could Harry Potter have settled to a normal life after his seventeen years of adventure, is the question that crosses the mind?
Something that would be bigger than me, would challenge me could be an answer.
What constrains me is my responsibilities, the fear of failure. Not actually the fear of failure, but the depression that ensues when you put everything on stake, and loose out. Invariably, you think are you a moron, a person with sub-normal intelligence. What were you thinking, and if you weren't thinking, why not? Huh, is the only retort. I would be more careful, more thoughtful is what you offer. But damn, the life of thoughtfulness and care is boring.
Feel like dozing off.
Wonder what would it be like if i were a psychologist?
Damn never stop trying it on myself, hope would not drive my patients nuts.
Coming back to life, i like to call it quits in the middle of all the projects i take. Why?
They stop being fun. I remember as a kid, i used to play cricket, and i used to play with the first gang of friends, then the next gang, and would never tire.
That was fun for me.
The wizened old man, i was sitting next to in a seminar, looked so cheerful and happy. He was enjoying life, being happy, and having fun. He opined that it is not what is outside that is fun, but what you make of it. Intellectually, and theoretically, i agree.
But practically, no. Why is the entertainment industry there?
Is it like that some things are naturally fun, and others need to be created like that?
People opine that living a life, where you are looking for fun is maddening, because something would turn you on, something would turn you off, and life is not in your control. But damn, what do you do with the control in your life? Play a rat race, enjoy nature, muse or abuse.
Guess the answer does not lie in pondering, it lies in living, doing things that i would love to do.
Hmm, the spirit is down, but not out.
To a greener pasture, to a lively place, tada for now.
Creation and destruction are natural phenomenon. One that gets created would get destroyed.
Desire to stay in vacuum, being on the stands of the game called life.
Observing people being happy, being sad, judging evaluating, waiting for a safe time when you would start playing, living actually.
And then wonder of wonders, what is the meaning of life, is the tone that plays.
Nothing has to be done, nothing.
You could do various things, all the same. Desire to do dims, been there, done that.
What next, is the question?
How could Harry Potter have settled to a normal life after his seventeen years of adventure, is the question that crosses the mind?
Something that would be bigger than me, would challenge me could be an answer.
What constrains me is my responsibilities, the fear of failure. Not actually the fear of failure, but the depression that ensues when you put everything on stake, and loose out. Invariably, you think are you a moron, a person with sub-normal intelligence. What were you thinking, and if you weren't thinking, why not? Huh, is the only retort. I would be more careful, more thoughtful is what you offer. But damn, the life of thoughtfulness and care is boring.
Feel like dozing off.
Wonder what would it be like if i were a psychologist?
Damn never stop trying it on myself, hope would not drive my patients nuts.
Coming back to life, i like to call it quits in the middle of all the projects i take. Why?
They stop being fun. I remember as a kid, i used to play cricket, and i used to play with the first gang of friends, then the next gang, and would never tire.
That was fun for me.
The wizened old man, i was sitting next to in a seminar, looked so cheerful and happy. He was enjoying life, being happy, and having fun. He opined that it is not what is outside that is fun, but what you make of it. Intellectually, and theoretically, i agree.
But practically, no. Why is the entertainment industry there?
Is it like that some things are naturally fun, and others need to be created like that?
People opine that living a life, where you are looking for fun is maddening, because something would turn you on, something would turn you off, and life is not in your control. But damn, what do you do with the control in your life? Play a rat race, enjoy nature, muse or abuse.
Guess the answer does not lie in pondering, it lies in living, doing things that i would love to do.
Hmm, the spirit is down, but not out.
To a greener pasture, to a lively place, tada for now.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Love, oneness and Gandhi
Have you ever been in love?
Stupid question, everyone has, at some moment of time.
The world looks great, you have so much energy and nothing is impossible to do for the one you love.
Well, its bad if the person you love does not respond, or worse still, has personal goals "orthogonal" to yours, and you end up getting "cheated".
But then if you could have done anything for that person, and that person does something that takes away something from you, how is that cheating? Isn't that what you wanted? Guess sometimes not. Coz you honestly believe that, the person you love, does not see, what you can see, and is going to go down. You try so hard to make the person understand, but it doesn't work out always. Get that, but then the conversation that naturally appears is "I did so much for the person, and yet ...". Hatred arises. Oneness with "people" is lost. There is no room for that person to err, coz you are so vulnerable and constrained in your way of thinking. Love does not constrain, it sets you free. It is your expression to love that person, and that person's expression to be himself/herself.
I gave up on loving the first person i loved, (atleast for a while) coz something happened. Wonder how it would have been for Gandhi, so much love for each and every person on the planet. Non-violence is the only way when you want people you love to understand, that they are misguided in their actions. I have read that it was a nightmare for Britishers to go on attacking people who just stood there and did not resist. The humanity in them revolted. Many went nuts or lost their peace of mind. They persisted and fought a loosing battle, and soon it became too much for them to continue. Gandhi had a lot of followers, because i guess he was there for the people, he was one with them, there was no personal agenda that he had. I guess it is the toughest for relatives of people who are so hell bent on getting their mission resolved. Would someday read how his people felt. "Gandhi, my father" the movie was on the lines i expected. Osho believed that Gandhi was very cunning, i think he was the apostle, that humanity so badly needed. He gave his life, but could not see the destruction of the independence and freedom for which we had struggled.
Hats off father.
Where are we, his sons, headed for? Why are we spreading so much hatred amongst us? Guess, its easy to err, than to stay on the middle path.
Stupid question, everyone has, at some moment of time.
The world looks great, you have so much energy and nothing is impossible to do for the one you love.
Well, its bad if the person you love does not respond, or worse still, has personal goals "orthogonal" to yours, and you end up getting "cheated".
But then if you could have done anything for that person, and that person does something that takes away something from you, how is that cheating? Isn't that what you wanted? Guess sometimes not. Coz you honestly believe that, the person you love, does not see, what you can see, and is going to go down. You try so hard to make the person understand, but it doesn't work out always. Get that, but then the conversation that naturally appears is "I did so much for the person, and yet ...". Hatred arises. Oneness with "people" is lost. There is no room for that person to err, coz you are so vulnerable and constrained in your way of thinking. Love does not constrain, it sets you free. It is your expression to love that person, and that person's expression to be himself/herself.
I gave up on loving the first person i loved, (atleast for a while) coz something happened. Wonder how it would have been for Gandhi, so much love for each and every person on the planet. Non-violence is the only way when you want people you love to understand, that they are misguided in their actions. I have read that it was a nightmare for Britishers to go on attacking people who just stood there and did not resist. The humanity in them revolted. Many went nuts or lost their peace of mind. They persisted and fought a loosing battle, and soon it became too much for them to continue. Gandhi had a lot of followers, because i guess he was there for the people, he was one with them, there was no personal agenda that he had. I guess it is the toughest for relatives of people who are so hell bent on getting their mission resolved. Would someday read how his people felt. "Gandhi, my father" the movie was on the lines i expected. Osho believed that Gandhi was very cunning, i think he was the apostle, that humanity so badly needed. He gave his life, but could not see the destruction of the independence and freedom for which we had struggled.
Hats off father.
Where are we, his sons, headed for? Why are we spreading so much hatred amongst us? Guess, its easy to err, than to stay on the middle path.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Love, marriage and Happiness
Hmm Marriage on the cards, hence rumblings might decrease and the mind might not be idle any more:-)
Just came out of a bad phase with my girlfriend. Well we were blaming each other for this and that and wat not. I can laugh at it now, that it is past me, but it was hellish.
Possessions and Possessiveness. Thou shall do this, thou shall not spend so much money, thou shall be responsible, huh, thou shall take care of my parents.
Am i getting married because i want to have good food, and get taken care of and would give something in return. Is this some kind of a deal, you shall do this and THEN i shall do this.
You shall not do this, huh.
Where did the respect and love for the person vanish? Constraints and restraints.
Why can't both people be free in a married setting? I dont enforce so many rules on my bro, i know he is grown up and can take care of himself, then why was it with my girlfriend. Coz also because i thought rules are getting imposed on me, and then if you make me unhappy, its my solemn duty to make you unhappy, hmm. Stupidity can be recognized easily at hindsight(well thats my original, another one could be that it is your birthright, it actually is:-)
Feel so great, that i do not HAVE to enforce rules, i do not HAVE to follow rules, yeah there would be things that would make sense and then there would be that wouldn't make sense, but then again, i dont HAVE to make sense. Great, looking forward to be with you dearest Shalu, being happy and *letting* you be happy, sorry for the pain i have caused, well i know i am forgiven:-)
Just came out of a bad phase with my girlfriend. Well we were blaming each other for this and that and wat not. I can laugh at it now, that it is past me, but it was hellish.
Possessions and Possessiveness. Thou shall do this, thou shall not spend so much money, thou shall be responsible, huh, thou shall take care of my parents.
Am i getting married because i want to have good food, and get taken care of and would give something in return. Is this some kind of a deal, you shall do this and THEN i shall do this.
You shall not do this, huh.
Where did the respect and love for the person vanish? Constraints and restraints.
Why can't both people be free in a married setting? I dont enforce so many rules on my bro, i know he is grown up and can take care of himself, then why was it with my girlfriend. Coz also because i thought rules are getting imposed on me, and then if you make me unhappy, its my solemn duty to make you unhappy, hmm. Stupidity can be recognized easily at hindsight(well thats my original, another one could be that it is your birthright, it actually is:-)
Feel so great, that i do not HAVE to enforce rules, i do not HAVE to follow rules, yeah there would be things that would make sense and then there would be that wouldn't make sense, but then again, i dont HAVE to make sense. Great, looking forward to be with you dearest Shalu, being happy and *letting* you be happy, sorry for the pain i have caused, well i know i am forgiven:-)
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Freedom
Habits: an automatic pattern of behaviour in reaction to a specific situation; may be inherited or acquired through frequent repetition(WordWeb)
Job: The principal activity in your life that you do to earn money
Girl Friend: A girl or young woman with whom a man is romantically involved
Romance: An exciting and mysterious quality (as of a heroic time or adventure), A relationship between two lovers
Love: Have a great affection or liking for, Get pleasure from, Be enamoured or in love with
Liking: A feeling of pleasure and enjoyment
Feeling: The experiencing of affective and emotional states, A vague idea in which some confidence is placed, sensation, temporary
Boredom: The feeling of being bored by something tedious
Freedom: The condition of being free; the power to act or speak or think without externally imposed restraints(read habits, job, commitments)
Is life about possessing or is it about experiencing, is it a means to an end or is it a journey to be enjoyed. A new car becomes not so great after a while.
Commitments, attachments: all get boring after a time. Is there a point in sustaining them just because the circumstances are aligned that way or because you once felt attached or commited.
Life: An analysts delight, lol.
Freedom: a dirty word, flawed, the act of freedom causes bondage. An imaginary concept.
Pleasure, feelings, love: things to be experienced and to satiate yourself with. Sustaining feelings or trying to sustain them is stupid.
Reality: Something to wake you up. Something that never lies. Good in the sense it tells you the same thing when you are up, down, you frown or clown.
Me: a stupid who takes delight in analyzing stuff, which is a dangerous habit, from which freedom i shall not seek.
Cheers and a Happy New Year 08
Job: The principal activity in your life that you do to earn money
Girl Friend: A girl or young woman with whom a man is romantically involved
Romance: An exciting and mysterious quality (as of a heroic time or adventure), A relationship between two lovers
Love: Have a great affection or liking for, Get pleasure from, Be enamoured or in love with
Liking: A feeling of pleasure and enjoyment
Feeling: The experiencing of affective and emotional states, A vague idea in which some confidence is placed, sensation, temporary
Boredom: The feeling of being bored by something tedious
Freedom: The condition of being free; the power to act or speak or think without externally imposed restraints(read habits, job, commitments)
Is life about possessing or is it about experiencing, is it a means to an end or is it a journey to be enjoyed. A new car becomes not so great after a while.
Commitments, attachments: all get boring after a time. Is there a point in sustaining them just because the circumstances are aligned that way or because you once felt attached or commited.
Life: An analysts delight, lol.
Freedom: a dirty word, flawed, the act of freedom causes bondage. An imaginary concept.
Pleasure, feelings, love: things to be experienced and to satiate yourself with. Sustaining feelings or trying to sustain them is stupid.
Reality: Something to wake you up. Something that never lies. Good in the sense it tells you the same thing when you are up, down, you frown or clown.
Me: a stupid who takes delight in analyzing stuff, which is a dangerous habit, from which freedom i shall not seek.
Cheers and a Happy New Year 08
Friday, August 17, 2007
Trust, love and logic
Hmm just used this phrase, but i trusted you and you ****.
Whoa, how easy is it to relinquish responsibility of a deed by saying i trusted YOU, but it is also like I trusted you.
Dude, you don't have to and its a choice you made, and deal with it.
And what is it with love, why does the person you love HAVE to be with you.
Whatz the relation between loving a person and having the person with you.
Yup you want to be with the person that you love, but if the person moves out, why do you have to stop loving that person. Kiddo grow up, stop reacting.
Damn your loving that person, doesn't make that person your slave.
Hmm, but commitment is another story, and yeah if both of you aren't commited, why does it hurt? Coz u can't stop thinking that person BETRAYED you. But why, no rhyme, no reason.
Hmm expectations, that is what you expected and it didn't happen. But dude wasn't that YOUR as in YOUR expectation, yeah, whatever.
But is there any lesson to be *learnt* from this?
Is it stupidity or is it not giving up going through the same pain again and again?
Different perspectives, different results and different conclusions.
Rationalization, whoa. Its a big word not worth its salt. Being afraid, thinking carefully and applying yourself is a choice. The flip side is that being stupid, being unrealistically dreamy is another choice. Why do i have trouble in adopting the middle path? Is it my identity, i will do things my way and create a new reality, huh? And then coax myself to believe i am a loser. Damn you, dude. Yeah, you didn't achieve much and you lost a lot. But then dude, you just like a life, full of risk and adventure. If you can give that up, you could start *having* things. Chill out, you don't have to prove a point, and if you have to, take a line segment, that has infinite of them. Chill out, enjoy life and do whatever makes you happy and plan on being happy, i.e. gonna be a fun way to start planning:-) And take a step by step on your dreams, thatz not as exciting, but lets fulfill them one by one, dude. We are gonna enjoy together, me and my *self*.
Loving outside the matrix aint as much fun as living in it, but the reality is outside the matix, hmm, and having happens in reality, yeah.
Happy for a reason, let the reason be happiness:-)
Whoa, how easy is it to relinquish responsibility of a deed by saying i trusted YOU, but it is also like I trusted you.
Dude, you don't have to and its a choice you made, and deal with it.
And what is it with love, why does the person you love HAVE to be with you.
Whatz the relation between loving a person and having the person with you.
Yup you want to be with the person that you love, but if the person moves out, why do you have to stop loving that person. Kiddo grow up, stop reacting.
Damn your loving that person, doesn't make that person your slave.
Hmm, but commitment is another story, and yeah if both of you aren't commited, why does it hurt? Coz u can't stop thinking that person BETRAYED you. But why, no rhyme, no reason.
Hmm expectations, that is what you expected and it didn't happen. But dude wasn't that YOUR as in YOUR expectation, yeah, whatever.
But is there any lesson to be *learnt* from this?
Is it stupidity or is it not giving up going through the same pain again and again?
Different perspectives, different results and different conclusions.
Rationalization, whoa. Its a big word not worth its salt. Being afraid, thinking carefully and applying yourself is a choice. The flip side is that being stupid, being unrealistically dreamy is another choice. Why do i have trouble in adopting the middle path? Is it my identity, i will do things my way and create a new reality, huh? And then coax myself to believe i am a loser. Damn you, dude. Yeah, you didn't achieve much and you lost a lot. But then dude, you just like a life, full of risk and adventure. If you can give that up, you could start *having* things. Chill out, you don't have to prove a point, and if you have to, take a line segment, that has infinite of them. Chill out, enjoy life and do whatever makes you happy and plan on being happy, i.e. gonna be a fun way to start planning:-) And take a step by step on your dreams, thatz not as exciting, but lets fulfill them one by one, dude. We are gonna enjoy together, me and my *self*.
Loving outside the matrix aint as much fun as living in it, but the reality is outside the matix, hmm, and having happens in reality, yeah.
Happy for a reason, let the reason be happiness:-)
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Bikinggg
Fond memories, i have of the day, when i bought my Pulsar 150 DTSi.
I had taken my friend Manish to the showroom to get the bike, as i didn't know how to drive.
But damn, i was clear as glass, that that is what i wanted to do.
It wasn't difficult to fall in love with my bike, and biking in general.
Totally totally awesome feeling to drive your bike, cut at high speeds at turns, and overtake vehicles. My bike has seen me through some gud times, and a lot of bad ones, but never given up on me. Although i rammed it, crashed it, and fell it so many times.
Thanks biko, for holding steadfast.
Its time for me to "grow up", buy a car, and the prudent me offered to give my bike to my bro, so that money is not spent in having 2 bikes in the household. But Damn, i am having withdrawal pangs.
Just yesterday, it was so much fun, driving my bike with both hands off. Although i was driving at low speed(30-40), it was great to change direction, with the balance of back, foot and hip movements;-)
Damn, i don't want to let go...
I have been putting this off for 2 months now.
This sunday, i have finally promised to send my bike to my bro in B'lore.
Hmm having second and third thots...
Am i gonna miss you? Surely.
Am i gonna remember you. Definitely.
Any last words? Take care, biko, and luv you
I had taken my friend Manish to the showroom to get the bike, as i didn't know how to drive.
But damn, i was clear as glass, that that is what i wanted to do.
It wasn't difficult to fall in love with my bike, and biking in general.
Totally totally awesome feeling to drive your bike, cut at high speeds at turns, and overtake vehicles. My bike has seen me through some gud times, and a lot of bad ones, but never given up on me. Although i rammed it, crashed it, and fell it so many times.
Thanks biko, for holding steadfast.
Its time for me to "grow up", buy a car, and the prudent me offered to give my bike to my bro, so that money is not spent in having 2 bikes in the household. But Damn, i am having withdrawal pangs.
Just yesterday, it was so much fun, driving my bike with both hands off. Although i was driving at low speed(30-40), it was great to change direction, with the balance of back, foot and hip movements;-)
Damn, i don't want to let go...
I have been putting this off for 2 months now.
This sunday, i have finally promised to send my bike to my bro in B'lore.
Hmm having second and third thots...
Am i gonna miss you? Surely.
Am i gonna remember you. Definitely.
Any last words? Take care, biko, and luv you
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Rhymes: The Highway
The cars' new,
the tank full,
a nice breeze blows,
and there is a song in the heart.
Its fun to ride on the highway.
Bumps on the road,
and a strong gale
do make the car sway.
Caution and focus do save the day.
Gosh, i do love to drive on this highway.
A heavy storm,
blows u away.
The cars coughs,
the tank leaks,
and the wind doesn't relent.
With each circle completed,
the tank does get depleted
Damn, do i hate this highway?
A compass is found,
a fuelling station just around!
The tank refilled and mended.
The car rolls,
the storm is friendly
and the heart sings a new beat
Yup, it is great to ride on the highway.
the tank full,
a nice breeze blows,
and there is a song in the heart.
Its fun to ride on the highway.
Bumps on the road,
and a strong gale
do make the car sway.
Caution and focus do save the day.
Gosh, i do love to drive on this highway.
A heavy storm,
blows u away.
The cars coughs,
the tank leaks,
and the wind doesn't relent.
With each circle completed,
the tank does get depleted
Damn, do i hate this highway?
A compass is found,
a fuelling station just around!
The tank refilled and mended.
The car rolls,
the storm is friendly
and the heart sings a new beat
Yup, it is great to ride on the highway.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Self fulfilling prophecy, life, me
Hmm its described wonderfully here
Still i thot i will write about it so here is a brain dump, it is random and hazy, you have been warned;-).
The bone of contention is perception, your outlook towards life, your actions, your responses/reactions are all shaped by perceptions. So how do we seperate the absolute from what we perceive. So what is absolute. Hmm food for nourishment of body, physical health, mainly pertaining to the physical self. Wat else. What about happiness? Some ppl do not expect anything from life, learn to take everything in their stride, be happy, some are blissfully ignorant and are happy, some manage to find sadness anywhere, and some are lost in their own worlds, confused. Absolutes governing them are the same, but perceptions, approaches and attitudes, results differ.
Welll how important is satiation of the desires? Would they ever cease? I notice myself at my office sometimes, and whenever i hit upon a problem, i feel like running away from it and going to some fairy land, where there are no problems. Part of me tells me that i should do something more "fruitful", satisfying, and maybe something more intellectual, and a part tells me its all perception, so watz the point dude? In the recent past, i realized it was good to have some short term goals, the fullfillment of them gives satisfaction and pleasure, but is dat absolute? I guess a jehadi and a yogi have a similar state of mind, they are totally committed to a cause, and gain "satisfaction" from their endeavours, but the "civilised" world has vastly contrasting perceptions for these ppl. Deja vu.
Being in the present does give you a joy, but you do like to know, wat is it all for; where does it lead to, for wht purpose are the actions performed by me directed. Indecision, confusion, impatience, fear, desires reigns supreme in me sometimes. The most pleasant part of the day is when i drive down on my bike at break neck speed, skipping redlights, avoiding collisions. Being in the present does have its fun, i don't deny that.
Btw there was this joke that i read, if you put two piles of grass equi-distant from a donkey, it will starve itself to death. Somehow, it does not feel dat funny any more, the fact that it was funny seems funny.
Balance is dat the elusive word? Hmm food for thought. Enjoy life as it comes, avoid inner conflicts, fullfillment of desires, good health, hmm lets see, freedom from thought, and meaning of life?. Hmm.
Still i thot i will write about it so here is a brain dump, it is random and hazy, you have been warned;-).
The bone of contention is perception, your outlook towards life, your actions, your responses/reactions are all shaped by perceptions. So how do we seperate the absolute from what we perceive. So what is absolute. Hmm food for nourishment of body, physical health, mainly pertaining to the physical self. Wat else. What about happiness? Some ppl do not expect anything from life, learn to take everything in their stride, be happy, some are blissfully ignorant and are happy, some manage to find sadness anywhere, and some are lost in their own worlds, confused. Absolutes governing them are the same, but perceptions, approaches and attitudes, results differ.
Welll how important is satiation of the desires? Would they ever cease? I notice myself at my office sometimes, and whenever i hit upon a problem, i feel like running away from it and going to some fairy land, where there are no problems. Part of me tells me that i should do something more "fruitful", satisfying, and maybe something more intellectual, and a part tells me its all perception, so watz the point dude? In the recent past, i realized it was good to have some short term goals, the fullfillment of them gives satisfaction and pleasure, but is dat absolute? I guess a jehadi and a yogi have a similar state of mind, they are totally committed to a cause, and gain "satisfaction" from their endeavours, but the "civilised" world has vastly contrasting perceptions for these ppl. Deja vu.
Being in the present does give you a joy, but you do like to know, wat is it all for; where does it lead to, for wht purpose are the actions performed by me directed. Indecision, confusion, impatience, fear, desires reigns supreme in me sometimes. The most pleasant part of the day is when i drive down on my bike at break neck speed, skipping redlights, avoiding collisions. Being in the present does have its fun, i don't deny that.
Btw there was this joke that i read, if you put two piles of grass equi-distant from a donkey, it will starve itself to death. Somehow, it does not feel dat funny any more, the fact that it was funny seems funny.
Balance is dat the elusive word? Hmm food for thought. Enjoy life as it comes, avoid inner conflicts, fullfillment of desires, good health, hmm lets see, freedom from thought, and meaning of life?. Hmm.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Rhymes
I occasionally write stuff that ryhmes. Going at my past rate of 1 in a year, i should be upto something soon. Here goes or comes, watever:-)
Setting:B'day of a classmate@college.
May you age like old wine,
and every year bring a new sunshine
may your all wishes come true,
and life open new doors for you.
Doors with locks and girls with locks
may all succumb to your charms
and may your road ahead be far from forlon
Life is great coz everyone does seal his own fate
so may you enjoy the challenges that life throws
and may you be wise enough to realize which ones to let go
and in others may you fight with all your might
and become better and better by learning from hindsight
and success shall not be far from thee
and hence my friend may you shape your own destiny
Setting: A new year far away from home and friends
things come and go
for good or bad,
we have grown older,
for this i am sad,
another year has gone by,
a new one stands in the womb,
ready to lay the previous one in its tomb,
that is how life is,
new things come and old things go
May we be as graceful in adapting to change
accepting new things without disdain
letting go of our fears,
wiping out our tears
by drinking lots of beer,
for beer is a wonderful thing.
it does make our head spin,
and brings us closer to Him,
for a drunkard is a true person,
one who does not lie,
and holds a special place in His eye.
So have lots of beer,
here is wishing you a Happy New Year
Setting:B'day of a classmate@college.
May you age like old wine,
and every year bring a new sunshine
may your all wishes come true,
and life open new doors for you.
Doors with locks and girls with locks
may all succumb to your charms
and may your road ahead be far from forlon
Life is great coz everyone does seal his own fate
so may you enjoy the challenges that life throws
and may you be wise enough to realize which ones to let go
and in others may you fight with all your might
and become better and better by learning from hindsight
and success shall not be far from thee
and hence my friend may you shape your own destiny
Setting: A new year far away from home and friends
things come and go
for good or bad,
we have grown older,
for this i am sad,
another year has gone by,
a new one stands in the womb,
ready to lay the previous one in its tomb,
that is how life is,
new things come and old things go
May we be as graceful in adapting to change
accepting new things without disdain
letting go of our fears,
wiping out our tears
by drinking lots of beer,
for beer is a wonderful thing.
it does make our head spin,
and brings us closer to Him,
for a drunkard is a true person,
one who does not lie,
and holds a special place in His eye.
So have lots of beer,
here is wishing you a Happy New Year
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Emotions and life
What is the role of emotions in our life? They make us happy, sad, fill us with glee, rage and the like. You get used to some of the emotions and start craving for them.
According to one school of thought, it is not good to be emotional, because emotions are not "realistic" enuff. They work in their own world and the clash between that world and realistic world leads to problems for the host. These problems always remain because your wants grow faster than the real world can provide them. But imagining a life without emotions is also not easy. Wat do you live for? Isn't the need for recognition, the feeling of elation upon accomplishment of doing something worthwhile(etc, etc) an emotion in itself?
Getting attached to eating "tasty" stuff isn't dat an emotion, i just want to eat a veg mc aloo ticki burger coz it tastes good. It makes your eating experience nice, but might not be very good for the physical self.
Another school of thought says that disregarding emotions is not the right way. At various points of time in life, you go through various "emotional" cycles, it is nice to experience those emotions and fulfill them. As they get fulfilled, others will arise, this satiation of different emotions at the time of their arousal is the key to "healthy" living. But even dat is not also not possible, you live in a world that is shaped by powers other than ur mind and your mind cannot influence external entities to make this always possible. Sometimes the result is severe and you get trapped in an emotional cycle dat takes some coming out of. Is dat also an experience to be worth had?
Both the theories are consistent with themselves, but none of them seems to be a clear winner. The former gurantees peace of mind irrespective of the world outside and the second provides you an "exciting" life. The trick seems to be to use a balance of both worlds(is the search for absolutes an emotion of the logical mind, isn't balance a compromise and hence vulgar, or is the term compromise too cliched hmm, digressing too much here)
One more aspect to the puzzle is living in the present, past and the future. It is said that worries are not in the present, but only in the future and the past. If you live in the present and totally focus on the task at hand, there is no more rewarding experience than the relaxation that comes as a result. But even excesses of this are harmful as you might not be aware of the side effects of your actions, while you focus on the task at hand. It might be too late to remedy the affect of these effects when you realize them. A corollary to this is that philosophers are never happy and the very act of observing changes the system, and hence confounding efforts for arriving at a solution(Heisenberg's law comes to mind)
A common benchmark that is used to determine "happiness" is that of a child. He shouts and cries when he needs to and is happy and content when well fed. What is it that we are missing that the child is not? I guess he is very clear about what he/she wants, while we get overwhelmed by the world around us and the preachers who tell us what we want. He lives in the present and is happy.
I guess then the trick is to stay mostly in the present experiencing as much of the present as you can and being emotional about the present if you want to and be in some kind of equilibrium with your sorroundings.
According to one school of thought, it is not good to be emotional, because emotions are not "realistic" enuff. They work in their own world and the clash between that world and realistic world leads to problems for the host. These problems always remain because your wants grow faster than the real world can provide them. But imagining a life without emotions is also not easy. Wat do you live for? Isn't the need for recognition, the feeling of elation upon accomplishment of doing something worthwhile(etc, etc) an emotion in itself?
Getting attached to eating "tasty" stuff isn't dat an emotion, i just want to eat a veg mc aloo ticki burger coz it tastes good. It makes your eating experience nice, but might not be very good for the physical self.
Another school of thought says that disregarding emotions is not the right way. At various points of time in life, you go through various "emotional" cycles, it is nice to experience those emotions and fulfill them. As they get fulfilled, others will arise, this satiation of different emotions at the time of their arousal is the key to "healthy" living. But even dat is not also not possible, you live in a world that is shaped by powers other than ur mind and your mind cannot influence external entities to make this always possible. Sometimes the result is severe and you get trapped in an emotional cycle dat takes some coming out of. Is dat also an experience to be worth had?
Both the theories are consistent with themselves, but none of them seems to be a clear winner. The former gurantees peace of mind irrespective of the world outside and the second provides you an "exciting" life. The trick seems to be to use a balance of both worlds(is the search for absolutes an emotion of the logical mind, isn't balance a compromise and hence vulgar, or is the term compromise too cliched hmm, digressing too much here)
One more aspect to the puzzle is living in the present, past and the future. It is said that worries are not in the present, but only in the future and the past. If you live in the present and totally focus on the task at hand, there is no more rewarding experience than the relaxation that comes as a result. But even excesses of this are harmful as you might not be aware of the side effects of your actions, while you focus on the task at hand. It might be too late to remedy the affect of these effects when you realize them. A corollary to this is that philosophers are never happy and the very act of observing changes the system, and hence confounding efforts for arriving at a solution(Heisenberg's law comes to mind)
A common benchmark that is used to determine "happiness" is that of a child. He shouts and cries when he needs to and is happy and content when well fed. What is it that we are missing that the child is not? I guess he is very clear about what he/she wants, while we get overwhelmed by the world around us and the preachers who tell us what we want. He lives in the present and is happy.
I guess then the trick is to stay mostly in the present experiencing as much of the present as you can and being emotional about the present if you want to and be in some kind of equilibrium with your sorroundings.
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