Love, marriage and Happiness

Hmm Marriage on the cards, hence rumblings might decrease and the mind might not be idle any more:-)
Just came out of a bad phase with my girlfriend. Well we were blaming each other for this and that and wat not. I can laugh at it now, that it is past me, but it was hellish.
Possessions and Possessiveness. Thou shall do this, thou shall not spend so much money, thou shall be responsible, huh, thou shall take care of my parents.
Am i getting married because i want to have good food, and get taken care of and would give something in return. Is this some kind of a deal, you shall do this and THEN i shall do this.
You shall not do this, huh.
Where did the respect and love for the person vanish? Constraints and restraints.
Why can't both people be free in a married setting? I dont enforce so many rules on my bro, i know he is grown up and can take care of himself, then why was it with my girlfriend. Coz also because i thought rules are getting imposed on me, and then if you make me unhappy, its my solemn duty to make you unhappy, hmm. Stupidity can be recognized easily at hindsight(well thats my original, another one could be that it is your birthright, it actually is:-)

Feel so great, that i do not HAVE to enforce rules, i do not HAVE to follow rules, yeah there would be things that would make sense and then there would be that wouldn't make sense, but then again, i dont HAVE to make sense. Great, looking forward to be with you dearest Shalu, being happy and *letting* you be happy, sorry for the pain i have caused, well i know i am forgiven:-)